eats me alive

i'm feeling insecure and it's excruciating.

i can't help but wonder why you're so reluctant to let me into your class. it's like you have something to hide from me.. or me from your classmates. don't want them to know you have a girlfriend here?

you should know how i feel, that i would be jealous. you still went ahead and did it. you don't love me enough to show some fucking consideration for my feelings? how the hell do you think i felt when i saw you eating and making merry with your classmates? if it happened to you, you wanted to smoke and i said i don't feel like it, i came out of my class when you asked to come in, and sent to you a pathetic, "i miss you" to "try and make things right", you wouldn't have been nice and sent back "you have other people to eat with.. :(" you would have said, "seems like you don't need me around much anyway, have fun.".

well, it seems like you don't even want me around you anymore, like you're starting to find me a hassle, like you're starting to care less, like you're just not interested in me anymore. have you grown tired? i don't blame you, i'm capable of being an annoying little bitch.

double standards just because that's the "way you are" isn't an excuse at your disposal. it's getting old, and i'm getting tired of having to bite my tongue.